Today is the 5th July 2007 . I can't take it any longer ! I have to say it out, if not, i just don't feel right . Uneasy is the word .

Chatted with Yuan Man, and asked him what i should do since he's a guy . He adviced me to confess before it's too late and i regret . Is that so ? But i really wanna know how he will react to my confession, maybe because i see even the smallest chance of succeeding, i wanna take it . I'm having a MSN conversation with him, but why is he replying so slow . . . . . . . . ? ? He showed me a photograph taken of his dance partner and him . She's lying on his shoulder, they're both dozing off in the train cabin . I don't feel pleasant about it and kept on thinking about the picture . Is this call jealousy ? I used to think people who goes jealous are narrow minded, but now ? ? I think i am narrow minded myself, though i'm not sure if i'm getting jealous .

I can't turn in with a mind like this . I need alcohol . Sobs .

H . e . l . p ! ~